Oh, Regina Spektor, my Jewish love.
I was riding a bus home and I was exhausted. I was drowsy and bored and I had a camera with me, the one that I rented from the uni the day before. No agenda in my mind, I filmed people sitting around me; people and streets, 17 minutes in total, 17 minutes of footage that was gonna end up in the trash folder of my computer.
It was freezing that October in 2014, let me tell you that. Me and Ari went to the forest near my house and did a photoshoot, nothing too fancy – black jeans, sweater and cigarettes. Almost classic.
This week I went to Camberwell College of Arts (one of the UAL colleges) as the part of my first assessment task. We had to work in a group and make a little research and a presentation of one of the fellow colleges of UAL, so we got Camberwell.
For the past 3 years I’ve been dreaming of going away. I have always known that I probably don’t want to stay in Estonia for my whole life but that was 3 years ago when I decided that I am leaving. I didn’t really know where exactly I wanted to go or what I wanted to study, leave alone I had plans for my future. I was just a kid in a tiny town’s high school, I always wanted more than I already had and that was the case this time, even though now it felt much more meaningful and important.