Virtuous Pedophiles – struggling with the most shameful mental illness

Browsing Youtube the other day I found myself clicking on the video called “Inside the Life of ‘Virtuous’ Pedophile” and was astonished by the topic. Virtuous pedophiles are the people who struggle with pedophilic disorder, meaning that they unwillingly experience sexual feelings towards children but made a choice not to act on these desires and not hurt children in any way. I took it further and researched the online community to learn about its story, agenda and see if this issue is something that can be taken seriously.

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Twisted ideologies (feminism)

Doing the research for my essay about Frida Kahlo, I found an article about another prominent feminist of the 20th century. Valerie Solanas was famous for her scandalous book SCUM Manifesto and in particular for her theory that men are not as developed as women are and, therefore, should all be slaughtered for the good of the female part of the human kind. The story of this lady made me think of one phenomenon when the initial idea of a movement, for example, gets twisted and remade so badly that even though the one could logically connect these two finished ideas, they are dramatically different in their sence.

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Magical beasts and how to sell them

When I bought a crazily expensive 26£-ticket for a Saturday night run of Magical Beasts I could only hope for one thing – not to be disappointed.

Well, what can I say, I really fucking was.

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the short and made-up story about two people who i filmed in the bus

I was riding a bus home and I was exhausted. I was drowsy and bored and I had a camera with me, the one that I rented from the uni the day before. No agenda in my mind, I filmed people sitting around me; people and streets, 17 minutes in total, 17 minutes of footage that was gonna end up in the trash folder of my computer.

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It was freezing that October in 2014, let me tell you that. Me and Ari went to the forest near my house and did a photoshoot, nothing too fancy – black jeans, sweater and cigarettes. Almost classic.

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CCA is artsier than LCC

This week I went to Camberwell College of Arts (one of the UAL colleges) as the part of my first assessment task. We had to work in a group and make a little research and a presentation of one of the fellow colleges of UAL, so we got Camberwell.


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The day my childhood was over

For the past 3 years I’ve been dreaming of going away. I have always known that I probably don’t want to stay in Estonia for my whole life but that was 3 years ago when I decided that I am leaving. I didn’t really know where exactly I wanted to go or what I wanted to study, leave alone I had plans for my future. I was just a kid in a tiny town’s high school, I always wanted more than I already had and that was the case this time, even though now it felt much more meaningful and important.

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